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If/Then & Idina Menzel: what a privilege to see a current & forever Broadway legend live onstage. loved this show. loved being in this magical city last night.

If/Then & Idina Menzel: what a privilege to see a current & forever Broadway legend live onstage. loved this show. loved being in this magical city last night.

just drinking a shake & taking a selfie in Grand Central Station. what an amazing space. & how ‘bout that beautiful American flag.

just drinking a shake & taking a selfie in Grand Central Station. what an amazing space. & how ‘bout that beautiful American flag.

gots the giggles (at Tottenham)

The hardest thing I’ve ever done

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In a few days, the Price family packs our bags and heads for Louisville; the big move has me in a reflective mood.  Looking back on our time in St. Louis, these 2 years have been – without question – the hardest of my 33 years (Runner up: 1995-1996, freshman year of high school).  So I felt like I should write a few words about this season of life that we’re about to leave behind.

Why so effing hard?  Many, many reasons.  Here are 29, in no particular order:

  1. carrying around an intense fear of failure, at all times
  2. feeling like a fake, like a sham, like I snuck into b-school & didn’t belong there
  3. leaving Boise, my favorite city in America
  4. very little sleep, lots of caffeine, lots of adrenaline, but no time to exercise
  5. feeling caught between balancing time with the fam & being committed to school 
  6. constant worrying
  7. believing I was a bad friend b/c I couldn’t find time for anybody
  8. wanting a few good friends at school but at the same time hiding from people because I believed I was inferior; b-school seemed so easy & fun for most of them
  9. borrowing and spending thousands of dollars for an uncertain outcome
  10. having zero income
  11. not being able to go to movies or concerts
  12. seeing Becca, like, only one hour each day last year
  13. adjusting to a vegan diet at home when all I wanted was comfort food
  14. panic attacks
  15. bombing exam after exam after exam
  16. not excelling academically, for the first time in my life, despite trying harder than I ever have before
  17. coming off an SSRI, then going back on another
  18. a crisis of faith, feeling like life is too arbitrary for God
  19. no ESPN
  20. a highly dysfunctional core group during my first semester of school
  21. spending the summer away from the stability of home…3 months separated from my anchors, Sarah and Becca
  22. interviews that lead to dead ends
  23. doubt. so much doubt. (Should I have taken that full ride to Mizzou instead…?)
  24. for the 1st time in 6 years: not practicing as a PT
  25. more nights spent sleeping on the couch than in my own bed, passed out from late-night studying
  26. skipping church most Sundays b/c of homework
  27. the decline of Boise State football
  28. amateur Excel skills that paled in comparison to my classmates’ 
  29. a temporary loss of identity that often seemed permanent 

So, yeah…it’s been a brutal couple of years.  My first year in StL was particularly difficult…just a total blur.  And when I say it’s been a blur, I mean that as definitively as possible, not merely as an off-handed way of saying “yeah, life went by pretty fast.”  There are countless things Sarah will talk about that happened during my first year of b-school that I honestly have no memory of.  There are these huge memory gaps from 2012 & 2013.  It’s such a weird thing, b/c I’m usually the type that catalogues details and memories in my mind as they’re happening – my nostalgic self likes to store these away for future recollection.  But my brain was a wasteland of Excel spreadsheets, Bud Light, and Einstein Bros. coffee.  

But in spite of all of this, there have been some incredibly rich and meaningful experiences over the past several years.  To name a few:  

  • watching Becca learn to walk
  • finding an incredible pastor & church in Matt Miofsky at The Gathering, a church we wish we could take with us to Louisville
  • new friendships, and the good fortune that one of those friends (a really good guy named Price) is also relocating to Kentucky for a gig with Humana
  • the gift of Sarah being able to reconnect & spend so much time with life-long friend Lori and cousin Katie (& their kiddos)
  • finally nabbing some hard-earned HPs (high pass) in b-school courses during my final year (yay!)
  • being in the same city as one of my oldest and truest friends, Lee
  • landing a great internship which turned into a built-to-fit-me job that uniquely blends my PT & MBA backgrounds
  • an amazing trip to Japan, where I was able to explore one of the most unique countries in the world
  • persevering & (somehow) earning the respect of peers, professors, and administration at Olin
  • getting my DPT
  • discovering the life-giving and life-affirming quality of top-notch behavioral healthcare, something Wash U has in spades
  • learning the discipline of mindfulness, meditation, and the art of slowing down
  • my classmates & I having the time of our lives the last few weeks of school in that beautiful new building and at various StL hotspots
  • living closer to family, which enabled numerous re-connecting opportunities
  • and – of course – the birth of Juliette

I’m thankful for so much – thankful that I can look back on these 2 years and remember some of the very good things that have been mixed in with the hard.  And sure – my quarter life crisis happened to occur while I was a student at Olin, but Wash U gets no blame from me.  I have nothing but love and appreciation for Olin and the people who make it a remarkable place.  It’s a truly fantastic MBA program. (And thank you God for the pass/fail system.)  Simply put: business school was just really challenging for me…would’ve been the same scenario no matter where I chose to do my learning.

Life for us is still in transition, much like it has been for most of our 30s.  But soon we’ll be in Louisville, settling in, living out the next chapter, and making brand new memories.  I’m pumped. And I’m ready for it.

Einstein Bros. Coffee //
Closed out my BearBucks campus card yesterday. took a look at my total spending over the past 2 years of b-school (it was over $1K!)  these tallies are from the cash registers at Einstein Bros. in Simon Hall; they include number of transactions, total amount spent, & average cost. 
major takeaway: I drank a heck of a lot of vanilla-hazelnut coffee and ate a ton of honey whole wheat bagels with peanut butter during my time at Olin (and enjoyed more than just a few of these as well…)
Einstein’s: thank you for being there for me when I needed you.

Einstein Bros. Coffee //

Closed out my BearBucks campus card yesterday. took a look at my total spending over the past 2 years of b-school (it was over $1K!)  these tallies are from the cash registers at Einstein Bros. in Simon Hall; they include number of transactions, total amount spent, & average cost. 

major takeaway: I drank a heck of a lot of vanilla-hazelnut coffee and ate a ton of honey whole wheat bagels with peanut butter during my time at Olin (and enjoyed more than just a few of these as well…)

Einstein’s: thank you for being there for me when I needed you.

I got my MBA at Burberry, but I will get my PhD at Apple.
Angela Ahrendts, speaking to a group of Apple retail managers as she makes the rounds to start her new job leading all of Apple’s retail (and online) stores. (via parislemon)

HOW TO MAKE THE PERFECT SMOOTHIE (that isn’t green)

We drink a lot of smoothies around this house…a lot of green smoothies and a lot of protein smoothies.  We go through 20+ bananas a week and spend more on organic spinach than we do on microbrews.  The Vitamix has proven to be one of the greatest gifts we have ever received (on par with the iPad I got for my 30th b-day…both were gifts from all-star sister-in-law Rachel Hankins.)

When my parents were in town last weekend, I fixed my dad a smoothie so he’d have the fortitude to make it through the alldaylong commencement madness at WashU. His widening eyes after the first sip told me he was a fan. And then he told me he wanted the recipe.  So instead of simply writing down the ingredients & steps, I figured I’d photographically document my daily morning ritual.

It goes like this:

1) Pour in about a cup & a half of milk (cow, coconut, almond, soy, whatever - we keep all 4 in stock in our fridge)

2) Add protein powder. I use vanilla-flavored whey. Apparently soy is better for you.

3) A sprinkling of flaxseed meal, to get those healthy fats

4) A BIG spoonful of peanut butter (sometimes I use almond butter to mix things up).

5) 1 ripe banana (we use 2 in our green smoothies)

6) A whole bunch of frozen fruit.  Personally, I love raspberries.  And usually add a few strawberries in there as well. 

7) Blend until it looks creamy…voila!  

Anberlin, 'Stranger Ways': Exclusive Song Premiere

I love this song & I love this band. very cool to see them back on Tooth & Nail for their final record. give it a listen.

graduation selfie, for posterity. #wustl14 #mba2014  (at Olin Business School)

graduation selfie, for posterity. #wustl14 #mba2014 (at Olin Business School)

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